Day 8 - Panic stations!

Panic on two levels today - one work related, which I won't bother writing down - it was bad enough first time, let alone reliving it for the purposes of a blog.

The second - I was cheerfully walking along to work this morning when I realised I had not put a shake in my bag for 'lunch' today. Not good. I wondered if I would be able to go 12 hours between packs, but decided that probably wouldn't work. I am only 8 days into the diet and am still in a mindset of having shakes at 'meal' times eg breakfast, lunch, tea. I know from experience that that passes, and its possible to go for long periods of time between them, but not at the moment.

Hmmm. Great trepidation. I wanted to survive the day without getting faint and/or saying sod it I'm in need of food I'll have something, but neither did I want to eat. I'm in ketosis, and i don't want to ruin that - it took me long enough to get here!

Imagine my HUGE relief when I opened the desk drawer and found a chocolate pack lurking within! I don't remember putting it there, but clearly I did so, for blonde moments such as this morning. (Must now remember to replace it....) However, despite relief the size of Belgium, I was still interested to know what to do should I find myself up shakiness creek without a pack in future.

So I consulted the wisdom of Minimins and asked what I could have, and am pleased to say I learned something; should that happen again, I know what I can choose and not throw myself out of ketosis or spoil my weigh in....chicken seems to be the food of choice, but also tuna or cottage cheese. Left to my own devices I probably would have chosen peanuts (instant protein delivery!) or babybel cheese. So now I know what to do. Bonus.

I'm finding the idea of the 810 plan very seductive. Food! Proper food! Even if its just a mini meal, its food. And I miss food - planning, shopping, cooking, eating. Apparently the losses are just as good, maybe a shade lower, but not much. Easy to see how that can be attractive.

But I'll think on this for a day or two; need to ponder and evaluate. At the moment, much as I miss food, I think I need a complete break from it. Sole source is just that - sole source - nothing else. I need to reprogramme my relationships with food; so having food is surely counter-productive? I can see both sides.

A good day, though, despite the panic. Fully into ketosis and despite being very very cold, feeling just fine. Not hungry at all. The promised 'feeling of wellbeing' has arrived! Brain like cotton wool, but never mind - I am deeply chuffed with myself for getting through the first week 100%. Weigh in tomorrow so hope to post with good news!